the BLOG.

2012-02-18T11:12:00.002+08:00

'..and then you realize that nobody ever really wanted you in the first place. you were just an accident, a coincidence - a girl who people felt sorry for and took in out of pity or they felt obligated to. no one ever sought you out just for you or took a glance at you and thought that you were the one.'

nyfw

2012-02-15T21:03:00.004+08:00

loving loving loving Oscar De La Renta Fall 2012!!!!!!

major loving for the hair, the long hair coiffed to a bob,

wonder how much hairspray was used to create the look.....

the hairbands are so pretty too!

and the volume and the detailing that is typical of ODLR, manifique!

love this time of the year where all the fall items start streaming in the truckloads <3<3<3

last week of work today, happy yet sad to leave.

can't believe its been 10 weeks already, it really did pass too fast.

and i'm quite certain i now know Raffles Place like the back of my hand ;)

much love to you all hope everyone's doing good xxxxx

Nicholas Kirkwood

2012-02-07T20:30:00.001+08:00

Are you looking at these gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous Nicholas Kirkwood Pre-Fall 2012 Apache Glitter Sandal????

Just tonight

2012-02-05T13:33:00.004+08:00

its been forever since i last blogged.

i've been so busy at work and every day just flows into the next.

i've been there for 8 weeks!!! (MyGod) and i've another 2.

going to court next week so i'm rather excited about that.

at least i won't have to think about what to wear ^^

had the most awesome luck the other day when i went for a last minute

client lunch at The Regent; Summer Palace.

10 courses - 3 hour lunch and polite conversation.

what an afternoon hahahahahhahahaa.

last day of CNY tomorrow, reunion dinner part IVIVIVIVIV already zzzzz.

okay bye gonna prep for tonight's reunion dinner with the other side of the family again.

but not before leaving you with pretty shoes!

Brian Atwood Alima Colorblock Neon Pumps

Christian Louboutin 8 Mignon Sandals

cny

2012-01-24T12:16:00.003+08:00

happy CNY everyone!!!!!

2nd day today and i'm already so shagged (also the idea of back to work tomorrow...)

i think i love CNY most cause i get to see all the cousins and spend time/have fun

together with them :) i have the most hilarious time with them always

and remembering all our growing up years. K.O.K for life hehehehehe :')

gonna get ready for visiting part II!! will update soon hopefully :)

HAPPY CNY!!!!

still-

2012-01-08T01:27:00.002+08:00

and so, i wait. because you have already left, and my work here is done.

i wait and wonder how things will be tomorrow, the day after, and forever.

i wonder at the mystery of life and how much of it can possibly remain.

i wonder at pain and hurt and love and time and how much of each i held.

i wonder at the tiniest of touches, and try desperately, to keep their memories alive.

i wonder at loneliness, i wonder at detachment.

i wonder how i can be so surrounded and yet feel so alone.

i wait, and i wonder.

ooh lala

2012-01-06T21:15:00.004+08:00

yum yum yum look at these shoes!!!!!!!!!

glitz + glamour + sex + sparkly + shiny all rolled into 1 pink stiletto bearing sandal!!!!!!!!!

these Christian Louboutin Meteorita Sandals are just ooh lala~~

P/s: had the best and worst day at work today. i am literally dying inside my heart is just ripped out HOW CAN A DO THIS TO ME. will expound. another time. till i recover from heartache BYE.

2012-01-04T22:10:00.001+08:00

i'm sorry, i can't be your friend anymore.

2012

2012-01-01T15:03:00.002+08:00

the new year is never complete without a reflective in-depth blog post B)

hello 2012, goodbye 2011.

i'm having trouble even believing A levels are over sometimes,

can't imagine what the idea of 2012 being here already is going to do to my head.

2011 was a....... interesting year.

it was hard, but yet not hard because in all honesty God carried me through so many parts.

i had some of the best fun i had this year. with some of the best people ever.

I CANT BELIEVE I MADE IT THROUGH THE YEAR.

i have no idea what 2012 will bring, but i know its going to be great.

because every year only gets better and better with everything i'm blessed with.

to those i love so very much, there's no need to mention here,

how much you mean to me, or how much i love you.

cause i verily believe i have shown you and will show you in this awesome coming year <3

so filled with love warmth joy peace happiness and everything now!!!!!

i hope everyone out there fills the same way, i hope everyone had a great start :)

loves kisses hugs and misses to all of you xxxxxxxxxxx

A

2011-12-17T13:32:00.004+08:00

first week of work is here and gone!!!!

i can hardly believe that time is passing so fast.

still can remember every single moment of work there last year.

feels so surreal to be back at the exact same place with the exact same people :')

and God is so wonderful with special coincidences and favour from my mentor :)

and i am still totally totally, irrevocably in love with A.

and on my own terms, i am also quite creepy.

i feel happiness, excitement, a frisson of delight just seeing his name on the door.

can you imagine what i am reduced into when he talks to me, smiles at me???

when he asks me to not hesitate and look for him for anything if i have any questions,

or just want somebody to talk to. yes i am reduced to little more than mush.

took me just 1 week last year to fall in love with him, what is 2+ months going to do to me..

on less creepy parts, cel and mav came to look for me on tues for dimsum!!!

so yum with them :) :) and i'm majorly craving popeyes now :( *shame

andandand, while i'm working now. i look forward to 5 things.

A, lunch time, knock-off time, weekends and public holidays.

how nice that my life is so easily summarized :D

leaving you with Louis Vuitton Spring 2012 collection pictures.

so pretty right!!!!!!! candycanesugarysweetpopsicles much :)

the littlest things

2011-12-08T20:44:00.007+08:00

wow can't believe its thursday already.

WHAT HAPPENED TO MY WEEK.

had so much fun this week can't believe its all going to end when i return to

work next week!!!! :( but its okay, i enjoy work :)

and at least i return to work with my nails done!!!!

2 hours of pure bliss today. lavender sea salt scrub + opi hand mask

this is what i need in my life permanently i tell you. ahh, to be pampered :D

had mav's 'birthday' dinner with cel at old airport road on monday

where the bbgirl mav drove us there and back!!!! how nice to have a license and a car

at your disposable, sigh~

library on tuesday again, and i really have to say this.

but everyone needs to stop laughing at me about the library thing!!!

just because i've visited the library 5 times in the past 2 weeks and finished 14 books

is no reason to say that i am too free or i have nothing better to do!!!! >:(

skipped prom yesterday and went to ippudo for dinner, then to the butter factory!

was quite disappointed with dinner honestly, cause i dont think it lived up to its hype.

i didnt enjoy the ramen as much as i thought i did, looks like i'll always be an ajisen girl heehee.

butter factory for our own 'post prom'! met so many MJ people there and

i had a surprisingly good conversation with justin!

i am also getting much older i totally cui-ed at like 2. cant tahan anymore

how do people do this on a weekly basis????????

ahhhhh had such a fulfilling week, wouldnt have it any other way :)

oh and i did my SCMS on sunday. it was honestly the WORST 6.5 hours of my life.

i felt so good into my first 24km then suddenly i realized people who were brisk walking

seemed to be faster than me?!?! so i decided to try brisk walking - WORST MISTAKE.

once i stopped i just couldnt start for good.

i did a walk-run all the way to 38 where i literally just died.

never did i imagine that even walking would be so painful and torturous.

and the sun, OMG THE SUN. do not even get me started on the sun.

felt like crap when i stopped at 38 cause i felt so lousy that i couldnt even complete the race.

like while i knew body > finishing, you have no idea how horrible it felt to give up.

cried all the way home, and i really believe now that doing a marathon is as much a mental

thing as a physical thing. just glad i gave it a try for the experience i guess :)

party in the sin-ga-pore~

2011-11-30T21:17:00.012+08:00

had such a wonderful end of A's celebration!!!

its so nice to see all my plans made so long ago finally coming to fruition :")

watched 4 episodes of PLL with mavis and managed to convince gen to watch with us!

cel came over after and just ended up sleeping on my bed.

left for georges to meet jeanna for drinks+calamari!!!

full attendance after such a long time since God knows when! ;) puipuissssss!!! <3<3

gonna colour my hair tomorrow and i'm majorly majorly excited because i have never

ever done anything to my hair!!! still googling colours and trying to imagine how it will look like on me! cant wait :) mav says she's gonna accompany me, so i told her to bring iPad for company.

OHOHOH. and she reminded me yesterday that i have to study for FTT this friday.

so technically i'm not done 'studying' yet and i barely finished half of the book today.

I DO NOT WANT TO FAIL. but i honestly dont see the point of learning manual theory

since i know i'm going to take auto. so frustrating nyyyurgh.

going to get my peppermint mocha (!!!!) and chill in the salon tomorrow!

*starbucks having buy 1 get 1 free for all grande sized xmas drinks tomorrow!!!

*so remember to get your "half-priced" drinks!! :D

AND. PRETTY STUFF!!!!

Brit artist Billie Achilleos created these special animals to celebrate the opening

of some new LV store over in Sydney. This is where i ask WHY DIDNT WE GET

SOME SORT OF MERLION FOR THE OPENING OF THE MBS LV OUTLET. HUHUHUHUH.

this is it

2011-11-28T21:23:00.007+08:00

#TOMORROW3PM this shit is going down.

feels so unbelievable that its finally coming to an end.

mama was right when she said in a blink of an eye all this would be over! :')

making plans with the girls for tomorrow looks like its gonna be PLL then georges in the night :)

my 2 upcoming weeks are majorly packed cause i'm squeezing in every bit of fun

i can have before i go back to work for 2 months. but its okay, i cant wait to see A again <3<3

and. NEIMAN MARCUS FANTASY GIFTS 2011!!!!!!!!!

this. is my life-calling. a yurt in my future back garden with rolling hills and idyllic lakes.

wouldnt mind a sprawling garden in my back gate along with the package.

oh how about a lake just further up behind my sprawling greenery. with ducks. and fish.

but first i need to find US$75,000 first + my own back garden.

i can manage fine with just the garden, i dont really need a house. its okay.

wonder if they do credit options. hmm...

your surrender

2011-11-25T21:21:00.002+08:00

had a great day in town with cel today.

can't remember the last time i went to town omg its been forever.

bought something cause how can you leave town without buying anything. right???

got my brows done after 3 plus months i can finally stop feeling like a cave woman.

but omg it hurt like shit today. must be too long of not threading already.

anyway i met my bb chia today it was so good just talking to her and hugging her

for that short time we met :')

attempted to do mcq today. my reflexes are slow like anything.

like all my knowledge is there, but i take so damn long to process anything.

oh man oh man how to do last paper like that. howhowhowhow.

okay going to start downloading GG from season1 again ^^

atelier versace fall 2011

2011-11-24T21:49:00.006+08:00

atelier versace fall 2011 took my breath away.

the collection is brilliant, every single piece.

the design, the textures, the colours, the bold and the pastel.

the aesthetic, o.m.g

how can people say donatella creates clothes that look cheap????

does any of this look cheap????? such exquisite detailing.

major lusting and loving going on right here, brb.

rain rain go away

2011-11-23T15:27:00.003+08:00

cousin came over to bake today.

planned to make chocolate mousse cake, macaroons and churros.

we're currently 2/3 through, and by my standards i think everything turned

out quite horribly. HAHA. oh well. its time i have to waste, and so it was time well wasted :)

its raining cats and dogs here, but i might be meeting cel later for book reading II

please stop rain, please stop.

freedom

2011-11-22T20:40:00.002+08:00

I am back, A's are almost over.

and i have never felt happier or freer in my entire life :)

had an awesome day today with my girls, and i forsee what great times i will have.

going to the library to borrow books, settling down at bucks with peppermint mocha (!!!)

mav and i reading books in silence. silence being broken by cel and gen.

taking pictures and spazzing, imitating cel //(^.^)\\

chilling at soup spoon talking nonsense playing temple run

exploring CCP and watching them take pictures with sushi chairs???

what a glorious day. how can i bear to be sad when i have such good times with them? :)

P/s: cant wait to start blogging again regularly!!!! have missed recording down so

many awesome memories this past year.

faith

2011-10-01T10:10:00.002+08:00

1 more month to A's.

i trust in the Lord that he will bring me through this.

and may it be a sign, a confirmation,

to be steadfast in my goal since i've known 4 years ago.

for wisdom, i pray. Amen.

just tonight.

2011-07-05T12:19:00.002+08:00

i saw something today that made me realize how far i'd come and how much i'd sacrificed.

i AM happy, i really am. it makes me all so glorious inside.

but what if i never stop, what if i never stop sacrificing. because i know i can do it.

i know now that all this is possible and i'll never be happy if i know that better can be achieved.

i'm afraid i'll never find the equilibrium where my goals and my current

present, is in tandem, at balance.

because if i dont, then it'll forever be a struggle for me in some way, in every part of my life.

and that's because i cant explain the way i feel. not even to myself.

people ask me why, and i can never tell them.

even the things i'm sure of, i'm not actually sure of.

does that make sense? i cant translate my feelings into words.

i cant explain the words in me wanting to get out, neither can i describe

the way it feels to long for someone, or to be afraid.

i spend hours dreaming of worlds where everything i ever want happens,

only to come back realizing that i'm still here, and nothing has changed.

there are so many words, and so many ways it can all be combined.

you're never just sad. you're sad and lonely. you're never just happy. you're happy and worried.

but i dont believe that any combination of words can adequately describe anybody's feelings.

is that the human tragedy? the reason we're all sad? that everyone longs to be understood,

to feel like there's someone out there that identifies with them.

but that ultimately we're all separate beings and nobody will ever enter out minds,

to feel the exact same way we feel, to understand the words that never form.

the end, for now.

2011-02-20T13:31:00.003+08:00

i havent been here in what feels like forever.

and i dont think i'll have time to do so in the future.

save for the random post and when i need to let my thoughts run wild.

well, thepurplepoohbear has served me well for 5 years!!!

and i'm never gonna change the link no matter what anyone says :D

so, i have faith J2 is gonna treat me well.

i'm gonna get through this year,

and i'll be back at the end of it ;)

18th

2011-01-29T21:32:00.002+08:00

best birthday in a while, with the surprise from the girls and everything.

thank you so much for all the wonderful wishes and presents :')

i had the best time that day with a good dinner and epic moments throughout.

my girlfriends are people that just understand me so well.

sometimes idk what i did to deserve them :)

and on a side note, i'm 18!!! I'M FINALLY LEGAL MUAHAHAHA.

closure

2011-01-21T21:23:00.003+08:00

maybe your first love is the one that you'll never forget,

because its the only person who will ever receive all of you.

after that, you learn better.

but, most of all, no matter what. a piece of you forever remains left behind

in the heart of the one you loved - a piece no future lover could ever get,

no matter what. no matter how.

that piece holds innocence, the belief that love really can last forever.

it holds friendship and pain, trial and error, sleepless nights spent on the phone,

that sunrise you'll never forget, and that one kiss you can never get back.

it holds youth and everything you ever thought love would be.

They'll never guess what's not inside.

2011-01-19T21:35:00.003+08:00

But I get carried away with every page and every magazine,
the cheaper the thrill, the deeper I fill my head with blasphemy.
So much to say, but no words to convey. The loneliness building with each passing day.
but I'm getting used to it, you have to get used to it.

2011

2011-01-06T10:43:00.006+08:00

best new year in a long time with the best company.
2011 is gonna be great i know it so.

2010

2010-12-30T20:57:00.002+08:00

so... this is probably gonna be my last post of the year before 2011 comes.

kinda feels like everyone around me said that 2010 was bad.

but idk, it felt good for me!!! like i think i had a good year :)

countdown 'party'/sleepover tomorrow.

cant wait, our sustenance for the night is alcohol+macs delivery.

how awesome my friends are right (Y)

cannot find this kind of people anywhere else so must pack them with me forever.

we're gonna dress up tomorrow and have fun like usual :)

AND my nails are this awesome shade of sparkle!!!!

its called 'sparkleicious', i am adopting this shade i swear.

feels so new year, so happy ehehehehe :B

i have also been cut off from mother's wallet till next year

(hadeehada, which is in about 27 hours~)

because i've spent like 300+ shopping in the last week

BUT ITS SALE PERIOD. i spend all year waiting for this ):

anyhow, i just have to get through the next 365 days.

then i'll be free omg. i will be so abso-fucking-lutely free.

then i can go back to intern, to see my qtpie ^^, to holiday and

do everything without guilt!!!! I CANNOT WAIT.

may 2011 be good for y'all :) HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!

failure to connect

2010-12-26T21:49:00.002+08:00

being able to talk to someone doesn't constitute a friend.

that's merely an acquaintance.

i hate it that the word 'friend' is used so loosely nowadays.

so many friendship problems stem from the word 'friend' being used too loosely.

cause everyone's my 'friend', and thus you are promoted to being my 'best friend',

or you're my 'good friend', my 'buddy' or whatever.

you start categorizing everyone into different categories just to differentiate

them from the acquaintances that you call 'friends'.

and sometimes people expect more from you just because they're more than

just a 'friend', when honestly they're not.

its just plain stupid sometimes.

i do it sometimes unknowingly, but if i'm lucky i realize

and i stop myself in time.

2010-12-16T20:19:00.003+08:00

have been so busy everyday i havent had time to do anything much.
been interning for 2 weeks already!!!

really enjoying my time,

but i'm having problems now cause i have no idea what

to wear next week!!! and i cannot repeat outfits muahahahaa.

and i have such lovely friends, coming to meet me for lunch.

and some of them come just to meet me!!!!! awesomely touched <3<3

plus i love my after work dinner or drinks with my friends.

hehehehe. and i feel so important when i do important stuff!!!

okay i should go now, sleepover tomorrow at my place VERY EXCITED.

2010-12-02T15:01:00.000+08:00

callisto beta, ogl camp.

i am now a callisto girl.

what if?

2010-11-29T23:24:00.002+08:00

I AM BACK FROM CAMP.

had good & bad moments but when i think back,

i guess it was partially my fault?

but whatever, its over.

i am aching all over. went for a massage immediately when

i got home, and now my aches seem to have intensified!!!!! ):

had alot of fun during camp, games were awesome.

people were lovely, everything was okay.

now i'm packing for my next camp this wed.

I WILL BRING A PILLOW THIS TIME.

okay i'm going to bed now.

pictures when i get them :)

you never really know

2010-11-24T21:52:00.002+08:00

my holidays are gonna pass by like crazy fast.

got OGL camp this weekend, and CCA camp next mid-week.

i am going to be so tired after everything is over,

then almost immediately my internship starts.

i like to be busy, but this is like whoah.

anyhows, then i will almost finally be legal :) :)

but somehow when i'm 18 all the fun out of sneaking into movies

and getting drinks illegally is gone. its like somehow

since you can do it without problems, the thrill just isnt there anymore!!

feel so happy contented with my life right now

i cannot believe the whole year is gone.

i still remember the beginning. its too soon, waaaay too soon :/

cant wait for countdown party ^^v

Gossip Girl

2010-11-19T19:03:00.001+08:00

i'm not sure if its just me, but i think chuck looks better in his 'then' picture

than his 'now' picture. hmm.

i wish i wish

2010-11-14T23:08:00.000+08:00

the secret diary of, me.

2010-11-09T19:36:00.002+08:00

my days in school have been pretty boring now that promos are over!!

there's PW every single day and all i do is recite my OP script once,

and spend the day gambling with my class in the canteen.

cant wait for OP to be over then i'll be free!!

so many plans this week cant wait for MBS with family&friends again!!

then harry potter preview next sunday with mummy.

God is so wonderful all the time, really ;)

raise your glass

2010-11-07T22:20:00.001+08:00

"if you dont understand my silence, how are you ever gonna understand my words?"

MBS

2010-11-01T11:20:00.006+08:00

I AM BACK WITH MBS PICTURES HAHAHAHA

sigh looking at all the pictures i miss it all over again.

really felt like a holiday with just us girls.

i didnt even feel like i was in singapore!!!

anyway i'm working my magic on daddy to see if i can get rooms again soon ^^v

why cant every month/week/day be like post-promos sigh.

very very happy with my zara and charles&keith heels heeheehee.

cant wait to start my internship in december,

and have fun deciding what to wear everyday.

i've already planned lunch dates with so many people

sigh why cant every month/week/day be like this sigh :D

best 3 days ever

2010-10-17T21:28:00.002+08:00

cant wait to upload MBS pictures soon!!!!

once mav gets them done!!

sigh, such beauty deserves to be shared :D

hope this will become a monthly thing if everyone's free ehehhe ;)

checked in on wed with gen, screamed rolled around the bed

and checked everything out when we found out we got upgraded to a suite

then we went swimming immediately, we watched the stars from the 57th floor

then we went back to eat our sushi and drink our coke and watch tv ^^v

woke up at 530am to hoof it to school that day, bah.

but then took a green form almost immediately to get out of that jail ahahaha.

met the girls and whoosh whoosh day of mega epic fun!!!

THEY ARE ALL RED AND BURING HAHAHAHA.

and i am nice and un-burning cause i spammed sun block! heh.

really felt like a holiday i didnt even feel like i was in singapore ~bliss~

walked to singapore flyer to get popeyes and i think we're such dirty people

we can never live together our house would be like a pig sty i swear.

then the churchies came over to see the view and sigh i cant wait to get the pictures

and feel happy all over again ~~~mega bliss~~~~~~~~

potato party on friday at mav's!!!

and i'm gonna tell her my secret plan tomorrow!

hope it all works out :DDDDDD

SO HAPPY. BEST 3 DAYS OF MY WHOLE LIFE THIS YEAR. FYEAH.

bliss

2010-10-13T09:53:00.001+08:00

i am at home and i dont know what to pack for tonight.

gonna stay over at marina bay sands with gen tonight!!!!

we're gonna go skypark at night and go swimming and see the city lights~~

just the 2 of us heeheehee ^^v

then thurs i'm gonna bring the girls down cause they wanna go swimming and tan!

sigh so excited!!! then friday is potato party at mav's sigh why cant every week be like this

~~~~bliss~~~~~~~~~~

post-promo ftw

2010-10-10T12:07:00.002+08:00

this week was a very very good week :)

promos ended on tuesday after maths (!!!!!!)

and that night. i had such a fantastic sleep.

woke up at 10 the next day to go meet chan&celeste in town

before going to meet jingo to get my nails done!!

FYEAH 2 DAY MC FTW.

sigh i'm so happy now just looking at my nails all day long :)

and to make up for the past 2 months of study,

i have been to town 3 days in a row. life is good (Y)

i am very excited with all my new stuff kekeke

and now i'm going shopping with mummy before

going to meet the churchies at bugis for steamboat/bbq

omg high cholesterol againnnnn.

BUT NVM. i will not eat when school starts!!

muahahaha okay i will end here i love my life when everything is so awesome.

smexness

2010-09-30T19:56:00.000+08:00

holy smokes! look at these prada maryjanes!

memories

2010-09-20T21:28:00.000+08:00

REMEMBER THIS GEN?!?!?!

what we spoke of

2010-09-15T20:38:00.001+08:00

we'll say goodbye, and you'll walk away the way you always do.

then we'll both pretend that nothing happened. and we never knew each other.

because that's what happens. you find people, and then you lose them.

and its those goodbyes, the ones you thought you'd never have to say that hurt the most.

what you've got, is hard to find.

2010-09-13T20:26:00.001+08:00

i really really really want to buy this for my sister.

but words, words, they always hurt me.

2010-09-12T19:03:00.002+08:00

maybe we have to break everything to make something better out of ourselves.

in my head

2010-09-03T19:42:00.001+08:00

_i_ for perfect timing

2010-08-29T11:47:00.002+08:00

i never thought i'd be saying this.

BUT WHY IS TK ENDING SO EARLY?!?!?!

and of all times, this is the one time

I CANT PON SCHOOL IN MJ?!?!?!

fml.

4am forever

2010-08-25T21:40:00.001+08:00

it really sucks to lie to people whom you know care so much for you. l':

*

2010-08-21T10:04:00.001+08:00

I really wish I could be enough just that once.

!!!

2010-08-19T20:30:00.000+08:00

OMG THIS IS WHAT I WANT FOR MY BIRTHDAY.

A LIONHEAD BUNNY WAHAHAHAHAA.

mon dieu!

2010-08-17T20:40:00.000+08:00

OH YES OH YES OH YES OH YES.

the way i could before.

2010-08-14T10:12:00.001+08:00

no one else could do it better

2010-08-08T22:52:00.002+08:00

best day i've had with the girls in forever (:

had fun like never and our bbq was so successful!!!

damnit our fire itself was so awesome :')

HEHEHE. plus our baked potatoes were sooo good.

thanks for the great day y'all<3

but i get carried away

2010-08-04T20:51:00.001+08:00

so much to say, but no words to convey.

the loneliness building with each passing day.

but i'm getting used to it,

you have to get used to it.

even if it kills me

2010-07-31T12:20:00.004+08:00

its so hard to concentrate and study when all i wanna do

is skip around and online shop and have fun with my girls.

there's so much to think about, so much to plan.

so much baking life to play. sigh ):

meet the parents was waaaay better than expected.

and this week was actually very very awesome (:

and on a side note. how am i supposed to do chem e-learning

when they havent uploaded it yet?!?!?! BAH.

freedom

2010-07-27T19:16:00.002+08:00

best. tuesday. ever.

started off with mad awesome fun watching house of wax in the

library with tim, gideon, sarahrah, mav and i!

then we were all so tensed already, and jh suddenly burst in

and gave all of us a shock and we all screamed and everyone turned to

look at us. plus there was no window blinds in the room that day.

ehehehehe :B

then lovely double period breaks with chinatown food and lazing around

the library bed upstairs nomnomnom.

ec talks with the tk girls during lunch~~

then dessert after PE, the ntuc shopping!!

see, its all the little things that count.

okay i'm just writing this here so i'll be able to look back one day

and realize when i'm sad, there were some days that were

so extremely awesome (':

all we are

2010-07-24T21:31:00.001+08:00

we wont say our goodbyes, you know its better that way.

we wont break, we wont die, its just a moment of change.

all we are, all we are, is everything that's right.

all we need, all we need, a lover's alibi.

we're gonna make this one right

2010-07-23T19:07:00.003+08:00

saw jocelyn today and this picture reminded me of my sec.2 days :)

finished school at 12.55 today (!!!!!) and rushed down to meet maesie

for lunch, i brought her to with a pinch of salt!!!!

comfort food, comfort food omg omg omg omg -bliss

was so happy with yumyum in my tum.

then i took 10 home felt like tk all over again like nothing has changed.

there's pe elective tomorrow,

so gonna watch movies i borrowed from school tonight

and snuggle :) :) :)

and yes, i'm positively happy now.

i can do this, i can do this, this thing.

because, because how can i not yield when you tell me so.

-happy dance

think

2010-07-21T18:18:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder.

if i was slim, would everything be different?

build to last

2010-07-16T18:33:00.004+08:00

quick post before i head out!!

today felt like the most 'friday' day i've ever had so far (:

had nomnom with the girls after extra lectures!

then i'm home now, getting ready to go meet maesie.

feel so happy and light. hehehe.

gonna meet jing tomorrow too!!

cannot wait ttum.

and on a side note, the problem is still bothering me.

but i guess you cant please everybody.

and it was bound to happen sooner or later.

so welllll..... that's that (:

it consumes you

2010-07-14T22:02:00.001+08:00

i'm surrounded by people all the time.

so why do i still feel so lonely.

everytime i feel lonely, i keep it inside, until the feeling is gone.

because i'm too ashamed to admit it to the people who love me.

i wish i didnt feel like that.

if its love

2010-07-12T19:37:00.001+08:00

this is freaking hilarious ttum omg its so gay i cant believe it.

HAHAHA ROFLMAO.

and on the side note i'm so glad spain won on extra time!!

and i'm so happy i won $$$!!!

but the #NED looked so sad i feel so sad for them ):

now its back to school back to everything else again. sigh.

baking life

2010-07-10T23:28:00.000+08:00

look at my baking life restaurant SO CUTE OMG HAHAHA.

I THINK I'M ADDICTED.

i wish i could be enough

2010-07-09T22:20:00.004+08:00

i am a girl. i have feelings. i overreact. i 'dont' react.

i change my mind at a whim. i underestimate, i overestimate.

i over think everything. i look too deep into everything's meaning.

i always dream big, my expectations are high.

i usually lie well, and i can tell when i'm being lied too. but sometimes i wish i couldnt.

yes i get jealous, and i worry about a million insignificant things everyday.

if i'm upset i try not to show it in fear or what others might think.

and all these happens, every single day.

how do i ever finish solving everything?

source : tumblr

your light is ultraviolet

2010-07-08T21:10:00.005+08:00

the matches these past few mornings have been AMAZING.
hehe really highlight of my days recently.
celebrated chan's birthday today!!!
i always love birthday celebrations with the tk girls~~

and now its fall/winter season.
i love looking at couture. best pix of the season after the jump!!

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nothing more, nothing less.

2010-07-06T21:03:00.002+08:00

cause if you jump, i will jump too.

we will fall together from the building's ledge.

never looking back at what we've done, we'll say it was love.

cause i would die for you, on skyway avenue.

it couldnt be better

2010-07-04T18:58:00.003+08:00

hottest cast ever. how do you fight perfection like this.

monday, september 13. CANT WAIT TTUM.

########

so exams are over!!! chem was ultimate EPIC.

went shopping on friday with chia, spent lots of $$$

and had fun running in the rain just to get to zara at liat (:

plus we had nomnom swensens for lunch (:

i love days like these. tomorrow gonna meet the 2 best friends.

to catch letters from juliet!! everyone who has watched it so far says its awesome.

so i cant wait! :D hope everyone's enjoying their post-exam activities too!

btw, on a side note.

world cup semi's and finals are 0230 matches!!

like that gg already no need to go school the next day....

HEHEHEHEHE. ^^

good shit

2010-07-02T20:22:00.000+08:00

lost in silence

2010-07-01T21:16:00.001+08:00

sometimes if you choose to just 'float' above what everyone's
saying and doing. your life just tends to just slow down and be
better. but then you realise that you're not sure whether you're
enjoying this peace and serenity. cause maybe its just not you.
and no matter how much you try to fight it, its just not you..

yum

2010-06-30T21:26:00.005+08:00

i love my girls<3

(all of them actually, but i cant seem to find a picture w everyone!!!)

i really thank god for absolutely everything that's he done that keeps me sane.

exams are nearly over, chem today was EPIC, and i have lit tomorrow.

my hands are itching, and my heart is aching.

but i'm still going strong. i dont think i'll rethink my decision.

so, two more lonely people..?

ps1

2010-06-29T18:11:00.000+08:00

LOOK. AT. THAT. SHADE. OF. GREEN. OMG.

2010-06-28T20:13:00.000+08:00

finally out of words

2010-06-28T13:20:00.003+08:00

cause you and i both loved,

what you and i spoke of.

and others just read of,

others only dream of the love.

_i_

2010-06-28T00:13:00.004+08:00

i am very upset now.... I THINK, I THINK... I CANNOT TAKE MATHS TOMORROW.
)': THE REFEREE IS KAYU, EYES GOT STAMP. I BET HE GAMBLED ON THE GAME
SO HE MUST LET GERMANY WIN. BAHHH. >:(

always have, always will

2010-06-27T15:11:00.002+08:00

"i know who those girls are, and i know who i am."

i do know who i am. right.....?

sometimes, more recently than ever. i feel like i'm losing myself

in situations that would never have bothered me in the past.

part of me feels like i have a valid reason to be upset/angry.

but then again, why do i care so much about these people,

especially when it doesnt even involve me.

i could say its cause i knew how they were like before,

and now when i see them like that i just get disgusted? :/

idk. honestly, i dont.

restart now

2010-06-25T13:28:00.002+08:00

i cant decide if i should get new havis or new shoes for school!!
the havis are so cheap omg hahaha 12.99usd is really damn cheap i cant believe it.
studying with jingo now at lido.
today's my 4th day in town straight!
knight and day was so awesome everyone should go watch it.
everytime i hear/see the ad i pause, and i'm reminded of how good the show was :D
i'm kinda excited to start school but i'm not really looking forward to mye's.
but nvm, just 4 days and it'll all be over! YESSS.
will update next week probably.
enjoy your last friday of the "June Holidays" \m/

now, dont look back.

2010-06-21T22:01:00.003+08:00

double promised, forever and ever amen.

the promise we made never to hurt each other again.

our unvoiced hopes held like a single spinning thread.

but we were so deep into it, we were heels over head.

during our conversations, you say, suddenly, "i miss you",

like the wind, out of the blue. i cant handle that.

and i wanted everything to stay the same.

but feelings fade, and people change...

i will laugh when i see this in future

2010-06-18T23:32:00.003+08:00

i just have to write this here,
so next time i can read this and laugh. at myself.

today i went to the zoo in the morning with the parents and sister.

then we had lunch at bishan then they dropped me off at marymount station.

i happy happy take escalator down, going to town to meet sarah, mavis, sharon and des.

then oh shit wtf. i have no wallet with me.

i came out of the house without my wallet and i was stranded at marymount station.

i had no wallet with me, i dont even have 5 cents.

if i didnt have my phone GG already.

i could prepare to hitchhike a ride home, walk home, or sleep at the station already.

tell me why am i so genius.

i think this beats my charging my camera, bringing it out without memory card hands down.

about you now

2010-06-16T22:25:00.004+08:00

this week has been gooooood.

and its only wednesday!!

i love happy weeks like this and last week!

my whole holidays have been very very good in fact :D

got my phone fixed on mon, went to airport to meet

sarahrah, mel, ralph, wan! sharon came later and we studied till.....

NETTE TOUCHED DOWN!!!!

muahahaah i told her we waited since 10am in the morning.

then sarahfish, sharon, nette and i went to simpang for supper+late night girls talk

had partial htht and reminiscing of tk memories with them<3

tues met sarahrah AGAIN!!

with ashley, gen, feng, and mingzuo came down later.

we had sakae yayayayaay after so long right gen!:D

then we headed down to lido to study for awhile before heading home.

went to parkway bucks to study alone today.

was very productive, i like (Y)

i got my favourite window seat plus it was raining

so i got to wear my new long sleeve shirt from topshop double (Y)

plus my dad sent me down in the morning so i didnt get caught in the rain! triple (Y)

gonna meet the 2 best friends tomorrow, i cant wait so excited luv them ttum!

okay pictures after the jump and hope everyone's holidays have been awesome so far!!!

#########

just for you

2010-06-13T20:21:00.002+08:00

studied and got my nails done on friday with jingo.

i've got my new place to study and where i can still chill after that:D

met m on sat and i went shopping and got new tops and i got shoes too.

yayayaye. there are like 2 weeks of holidays left before school starts.

omg time is running out. sush with ashley and gen and sarah next week cant wait cant wait! (:

okay reflection. guess what is my biggest accomplishment this whole week!!!

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FINISHING 9 EPISODES OF GG SEASON 3 :DDDDDD

andddd. i know what i have to do.

if i told anyone the entire situation,

i bet that immediately they would get how ironic everything is.

but i'm better than this.

this isnt fair to me,

and i'm not sure you get that.

so this is what i have to do, and i will.

feed your doubts

2010-06-09T23:01:00.003+08:00

i've been having so much fun the past few days i havent had time to update!

met hawa&xing for study plus dinner on monday and it was good.

we had alot of laughs (as usual) and it was just so simple and fun to be with them again (:

tuesday was GOSSIP GIRL MARATHON at chlo's place with mae, chlo and nic.

so much to catch up on so much to catch up on!!

caught SATC2 with bb foo today it was good.

i enjoyed our talks in my room while we were studying.

miss her so much (:

okay and i just got back from town and i'm freaking shagged so i'm gonna sleep now.

mae's house again tomorrow probably. to continue GG plus other fun stuff.

love you baiiiiiiiiiiiii ;)

~

2010-06-06T23:32:00.000+08:00

make your move,

before i'm gone.

because people change,

and hearts move on.

just because

2010-06-03T21:48:00.001+08:00

thanks chan and kim for listening today.

and i love you v much too sarah :D

i've got the best girls (Y)

never anyone else, but you.

2010-06-01T20:38:00.003+08:00

learning journey w the class was fun albeit very tiring.

had a good day, i thought the show was good leh people.

nvm maybe its just me. was very mang zang the whole day ytd.

dont know why either, was just frustrated ttum.

on a side note, do you ever stop to think about all the things you've said/done

and how they can all be so misleading?

xx

2010-05-30T21:34:00.002+08:00

double promise forever and ever amen.

i havent said it to someone new in a very very long time (:

you're never gonna be alone

2010-05-29T00:12:00.003+08:00

my thursday&friday was filled with so much

fun + laughter + people i love + warm feelings in your tum + love.
it sure made everything feel better, plus it was such an awesome way to start the hols!

pictures from movie at gen's house and taming of the shrew play.

#####

to my bffae :

i love my maesie chew so much. and today she's 17.

i think i was the first one to wish her (yay me)

and she's the most awesomest person+friend i could ever have.

i dont think she'll ever see this. but for memory/record sake.

i'm gonna write it down here.

we're simpang+shopping+movie+glee+GG+bitching+eating buddies.

mae, i dont think you'll ever see this but i love you so much and

i cant believe its been like 7 years we've been friends?

i'm glad you stay so close and that i love you and your family so much too.

i just want you to know that what hurts you hurts me too

and oh gosh its 12 in the night and i'm being sappy here but.

if our first 7 years together has been awesome,

what's forever and ever gonna be like? ;)

have a great great birthday and we're gonna celebrate it together soon!

i cant wait to see you and give you a big hug cuz i love you xxxxxxxxx

#####

built up so much, it crushed us everyday.

2010-05-26T21:00:00.002+08:00

from soccer finals at jalan besar!!

THE SEATS WERE DISGUSTING TTUM BTW.

anyway i had so much fun that day cant believe its gonna be 1 week alr tmr.

time passes too fast in JC.

i love this picture its so CANDID.

look at tha and andrea's 'shocked faces' then you look at mine!!

I LOOK EQUALLY SHOCKED.

i am FINALLY gonna meet chia this friday before taming of the shrew.

very very excited, cannot wait. it has been too long, much too long.

tomorrow is the last day of school before the holidays.

then its gonna be dindin with the tk girls + maybe a movie after that.

THIS IS GONNA BE SO MUCH FUN.

today's a good day. it sure felt like it (:

and maybe i dont need to be happy all the time.

cause all i need in the end is someone who's gonna tell me everything's alright.

P/s : CHRIS IS SUCH A GENTLEMAN. MY BEST BUDDY FOR LIFE (Y)

he offered to carry my bow bag the whole day for me. speechless ttum.

its a happy kind of sad

2010-05-21T22:10:00.002+08:00

every time i feel lonely.

i keep it inside, until the feeling is gone.

because i'm too ashamed to admit it to the people who love me.

i wish i didnt feel like this.

on a lighter note, had yummy ramen+sushi with mumsy today.

then we went shopping. i love shopping. it always makes me feel better (Y)

today i also got my bow. its so pretty i love it so much.

the best part of the whole bow is my string. because its green.

i have training. tomorrow. again. goodnight.

together, fae.

2010-05-19T21:30:00.002+08:00

you wanna play the game? its like this :

you play around, you have fun, you share secrets.

you tell stories, and cry on each other's shoulders.

you hold hands, you think about forever.

but you dont fall in love.

because the first one who does, loses.

slightly negotiable

2010-05-17T20:46:00.004+08:00

i am currently owing a GP essay that is due tomorrow.

i am done with.... my introduction.

YEAAAH. and i had a econs test and wrote a lit essay today.

i really dont feel like writing anymore ):

my days are flying pass like whooshwhoosh.

this week + 1 more week then its the june hols!

i cant wait but shit i'm running out of time.

caught a movie with gen, sarahfish and nana today.

hehe then we had dinner and talked for 2 hours straight!

i miss days like these.

dance concert on saturday was fab, gloria was so awesome.

and tj dance was really good too! 1st time i watched alicia dance and i was like wow.

okay i should be going now, update soon.

SOCCER FINALS ON THURSDAY. SO EXCITED TTUM.

ONE DAY HOLIDAY ONE DAY HOLIDAY. WHOOPWHOOP.

into the dark

2010-05-12T21:38:00.001+08:00

you make me question myself, and i do.

i kept thinking of you the whole time, and what you would do.

i avoid looking at you, cause its too hard.

because everytime we see each other, we go a little deeper.

i never should have done this to you.

maybe i should keep this to myself.

2010-05-09T19:55:00.004+08:00

for once, i dont know what to do.

i wish i knew what to say.

i didnt meant to shut you out.

i'm so confused, but i dont know what to do.

because everyone gives me ideas, and i overthink them.

i'm not scared of telling you, i'm scared because what i need is a decent answer.

and.... what if you cant give it to me?

now let me hear you say

2010-05-06T20:48:00.008+08:00

STILL doing PI.

gonna pass up tmr whoowhoowhoo.

tomorrow's friday cant wait!

but shucks got cca on saturday cause of interschools coming soon.

there goes all my saturdays in may ):

i have so many wonderful plans cant wait for all of them to be done!

oh and this is just a random thought.

the other day during cca, mr tan was 'scolding' some of them.

so he said. "remember that you're first a meridian archer before anything else."

then i thought in my head. no, that's not true.

i'm always a tk girl first before anything else.

free-falling

2010-05-03T21:17:00.006+08:00

i am doing my PI now. it..... does not suck.

i am trying to avoid hating subjects/work, cause i have this notion.

that if i hate them, they will hate me back...

BUT TTUMPOS IS AN EXCEPTION. (hahha only those who understand will geddit.)

i'm so tired of looking at microsoft word .

i just want to read beautiful prose and weep until i collapse or the like.

i havent been to the rocks in forever, they dont feel real anymore.

i want to fall into the sunset, to dive into the ocean.

if only to run into the sea, and sleep in sand.

follow me, into obscurity.

leave all your loving, your loving behind.

2010-05-02T17:44:00.002+08:00

i remember what i love you for, and i will always go back to you.

we're a little distant right now, but distance is good sometimes.

just dont forget me, and i'll be thinking of you.

-sr

DILEMMA

2010-05-01T18:10:00.000+08:00

so i met him today. and we talked.

thing is, so are we on or off now.

sparkle

2010-04-30T23:58:00.001+08:00

mamihlapinatapai.

i hate making tough decisions.

and that's my new favourite word.

i try to keep it simple.

2010-04-30T23:38:00.003+08:00

THE WEEK IS OVER.

first time in a very long time that i've looked forward to the weekends..

tomorrow's gossip girl marathon w chloe&mae, cant wait:D

AND i need a new studybuddy.

i cant rely on pris forever ):

and there are so many things i really want to say out here.

but then i cant. cause then i would be trapping myself in a box.

i need to think. i always need to think.

i love you more than ___

2010-04-27T20:23:00.001+08:00

people say to love, you must first love yourself.

so... i love you more than i love myself.

iloveyoumorethanblank.com

what's your yardstick for love.

be. in my heart. forever. xx

2010-04-27T19:39:00.002+08:00

i've been... fine. very fine.

but today wasnt a very good day.

nothing bad happened, it just.... wasnt.

but my talk with chels today was good, i enjoyed it (:

and while going home alone today i realised something.

that i really love to remember all my tingle-in-your-toes memories and

savour them when the world doesnt feel right.

cause there's only so much you can tell your friends.

and the rest you keep in your heart.

cause only you will know best what you feel, and what truly happened (:

they told me to tell you to hold on.

2010-04-25T15:23:00.004+08:00

there's school tomorrow, and i cant wait!

cause i'll be able to see mel:D and jeryl and ralph.

i miss everyone so badly.

sarahfish got twitter! we're gonna have so much fun i can feel it already.

i like giggling to myself cause it makes me happy.

and i love my little hippo toy cause its so cute!

everything feels so right now, i should just take what i've got and run.

today in my life,

2010-04-21T21:46:00.002+08:00

today during cca.

i climbed a 3m ladder and poured soap+water down a tree.

to kill ants. it was SO MUCH FUN. (Y)